drowning

is it possible to drown above water?

i've got it coming in all directions

does anybody remember those blow up punching bags with the sand on the bottom?

i think i use to have a fred flintstone one.

you would smack it and it would come right back up.

i must be a glutton for punishment 

because i keep coming back up.

people in all there infinite glory 

have an amazing ability to

disappoint

hurt

blame

not all

but lately most

and not only do i feel like i'm sucking air through a straw under water

i'm in the murkiest of murky waters

my spirit is crushed

and i feel that i'm constantly failing

i get that you can't always be winning

but sometimes

it would be nice to feel like you're doing it right

and not be 

judged

for every single action you make

life

is sometimes a pain in my ass

if i could scream 

i would 

break sound barriers

then they would lock my sorry self up

so i'm wallowing in a pity fest

big deal

i'll get over it.

i always do.

numbah one!

transition complete

i know my friends have been missing me over at the renee chronicles. but here i am! transitioning to a new blog has proven to be much more complicated than i expected. in the end i made it through just fine. a lot of things have been happening this summer and i'm looking forward to sharing all of it.

so, what to expect? i think if you enjoyed reading the renee chronicles, turbulent indigo should provide that same humorous out look. this change is a good one for me. i've narrowed down my style and interest and was able to come up with something that was more ME!

i wanted an outlet that would allow me to create and meet the people that interest me. people that have similar or not "so" similar interest but are not so far out in left field that i cannot relate on any level. what i realized is that i've been craving an outlet to do the things that make me who i am. that could be music, cooking, food in general, diy projects, painting [which i haven't done in far to long] books or anything else. sounds boring and plain enough but i'm a pretty good writer too. just ask me i'll tell you.

take a look around tell me what you like and what you don't. i will try not have hurt feelings. the goal? to take the ordinary and make it extraordinary!