Is it Good or Is it Bad?

This post is more of a thought swirling around in my head so I apologize up front for its lack of formality.

Dog walks are currently very hard. We have to snow shoe our way through it. I love to snow shoe. However, the amount of concentration, energy and effort it takes at 5 AM to do this can sometimes reduce your inner self to a crying toddler on the floor of Wal-Mart. The pace is not a nice leisurely walk. We are on a time crunch. On a normal pavement walk we can make it in half an hour. Snow shoe days add an additional 10 min. These 10 minuets are normally spent guzzling down a fresh hot cup of coffee. And without enough coffee to jolt my system I tend to be a giant wanniewanniewoowoo pain in the but. It is hard to get up and walk the Dude sometimes. Especially when you know the challenge that awaits you. But his face and the sense of accomplishment that immediately comes over you when you finish are "always" so worth it.

Due to recent events that I just can't discuss I have been sitting back and observing a lot of things. More so about me because lets face it people I am narcissistic. This entire blog ooozzzes it like molasses. I'm secure in that. So, in case you haven't been told - Life is a well coordinated jazz fest. My marriage is my greatest accomplishment to date. And I know that Geoff would agree with me on this because we've discussed this mulitple times. Anyone who tells you that marriage is easy has never been married. Marriage is awesome please don't get me wrong. Marriage is work. Does anyone want to know what the golden ticket is?

Communication. If you can't share everything and I mean everything then it won't work. I can't believe that Geoff and I have been together for 20 years! The only other thing I've done longer than that is live. And we have had as most couples do some murky lakes of burning oil that we needed to swim through. For Better or Worse. Nobody tells you that the worst is nearly debilitating. And when you reach the other side you've either learned something or you haven't. I can assure you that when you stop talking to each other you are definitely in trouble. Sometimes its a challenge - but just because it isn't shiny and happy doesn't mean that its bad. [for the most part]

Gardening is a total challenge and admittedly sometimes they look pretty bad. So what does that mean? Do you stop doing it because it didn't come out the way you hoped it would? Well if you had a neighbor like mine who's yard is immaculate your answer would be no. However I designed my gardens my self. I'm certain he had "someone" design his. His gardens are static - mine are dynamic!!! I always want them to look amazing and sometimes I get a little OCD about the whole thing. Weeding is not my bag. I love pruning and plucking and watering but I hate weeding. And sometimes when you want to toss the towel in because you completely overloaded the vegetable garden and there isn't enough room for stuff to grow. Someone will say - that is so pretty! I've always wanted to do that. Or hand you a framed picture set of all your flowers in bloom. And you think awesome! And attack it again the following Spring. [oh spring....please hurry up]

I suppose I could go on and on. I'm not sure I even know what point I'm trying to make. Does there have to be a point?

As a side note I'm looking for some sponsers!!! So if you would like to have some free space I'm planning on opening that up in the next few months. If you're interested please email me! ren@thereneechronicles.com